Monday, December 29, 2008

I will be OK.

I was talking the other day to a friend and I complained to him that I can't wait for this year to be over and the new year to start so I can leave all my bad luck behind. His answer to this was "How does your bad luck know it's a new year? You know bad luck doesn't have a timestamp!"
Gulp. He was right.
Then I tried to justify my earlier statement with "Well I have had more bad luck this year then many other people in 20 years"!
I could hear him smiling... we were on the phone. And I just know he was having one of his smart ass grins on his face. "But there is no such thing as a score card for good or bad luck".
F***. I know he is right. I hate when he is right.
As much as I am hoping and wishing and telling myself that I deserve good luck... it doesn't matter. Good Luck is nothing I deserve, or can hope for... it comes your way. Mostly unexpected.
But I can do something... I can look at all this bad luck and try to make sense out of it and learn something from it.
Of course right now maybe not everything is making sense, but I bet you down the road, in 5,10,20 years I will understand. And I guess that's what faith is... believing that at the end everything will be a OK.

I will be OK.


  1. You WILL be ok, love. You will. Keep the faith. And I am praying for an awesome 2009 for you.

  2. You WILL be okay, Sonja. I think we all need to be reminded to have a little faith sometimes. Thanks for reminding me...

  3. Sometimes there are downs in live, but there will be many more ups in your live to come.
    You diserve it. I know that.
    Just never quitt believing so.
    Do you remember this: 1...2...3...?
    A big hug! Mom

  4. You will be okay-
    I promise
    your bad luck may not know that it is a New Year-but YOU do!
    Happy 2009!

  5. Honey, it never makes sense when bad things happen. Try to see them as a challenge, not a punishment or burden. They will help you find your way. A very good friend told me once that God will never put more on your shoulders to carry than you can deal with. God loves you and he has a plan. And I love you too. Embrace your gifts, you have so many...

  6. Girl do not focus on the bad - law of attraction - GOOD THOUGHTS>GOOD HAPPENINGS>GOOD THINGS>GOODGOODGOOOD. Obviously you are a very strong woman and you have a very strong family because you've made it through the year in one piece!!! Much love, Denise